-i cant carry on like this anymore but i dont know how not to!
-yes,it's true! even brilliant people are full of shit, i didn't realise that until i met you!
-I really, REALLY like *you*. I'm so smitten and it borders on pathetic. Being with you is really amazing, and I can't wait to be in the same room with you again. When you talk, it's like the narrative out of my favorite movie.
-You fuckin stupid whore!I hope you're gang-raped by 30 greasy homeless guys who break every bone in your fuckin face after they're done.
-still.obsessed.with.you. we've known eachother for like a year!but it's over now!WTF is wrong with me? GOD...I'm so lame.
-please, love me. just love me. or want me. or act as though you want me or need me. please, just want me.
-to a stupid cunt: why do you go OUT OF YOUR WAY to think up vulgar things to say that are aimed at me. I refuse to aknowledge what you said, but damn! I've never crossed you other to have a different opinion than you (okay and maybe NOW cuz of this "fight" with your friend). I hope I don't have to run into you anywhere, cuz it'll get ugly and it's likely I'm the one to look stupid. You rarely know what the fuck you're talking about, but you're so cool arent you? So hard. So punk. Fuck you, you ignorant cunt.
-oh god i cant wait to see you, this weekend is going to be fun. i dont care what happens between us.
-You are such a fucking child sometimes.
-I miss you so much. I was doing completely fine until that fucking dream I had. It was like a trip back in time.... it was so painful to wake up and know that things are different. Is there even a chance that we could start over fresh?
Phew..it feels so good to let it all out!
Isn't amazing that just when you're givin up or lost something unexpected can change everything!
*dances around*
Happy,happy ...joy,joy!
I heart my friends
i heart my family
i heart my sister
i heart the boys in my life
i heart music
i heart dancing semi naked in my beedroom
i heart hash
i heart my new laptop
i heart HIM
i'm just finally happy. I havent been in a whille. Its really great.
Kinda overwhelming at times...it scares the shit outta me sometimes.Even tho things are kinda hard and soon to be harder. I'm still happy!
I hope this feeling never goes away!
I feel SO good!
Plz let it stay for longer than a week!
ok so ever since i broke up with my x( like 9 months ago),i've been like seeing/dating/hooking up with a lot of random guys, many of which I don't even really like.I'm so freakin embarassed about it.It's SO not me.You see i have high standards.And it's definietly not about the attention...cause i get a lot of attention like all the time to the point where it gets annoying actually.
I don't know WHY i'm doing what i'm doing?but somehow i just can't stop,it's getting too addictive....i feel like there is a hole ,an emptiness that i wanna fell.
Anyway,it got worse when i broke up with my boyfriend.It's like i don't care anymore...or maybe by creating non-relationships is just a way of saying i'm not ready for a serious relationship and commitment that it comes with it...i dunno!!I'm SO confused!
The thing is those random guys could NEVER hurt me...casue i don't give a fuck about them.i'm just in it for fun whereas with the one i really like he would have that kind of power over me.and i really like the fact that i control things like i can end any of those random "relationships"" anytime i want and i wouldn't even feel sorry or bad about it.
Whatever the reason is...this thing is getting out of contol.It has to stop.It all started out as a "fun" thing but now it's actually a problem.I feel like a slut and i hate it.
i MUST have more self control, i must.
she walked out with empty arms machine gun in her hand she is good and she is bad no one understands! Turn back time : November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 .
