ok so ever since i broke up with my x( like 9 months ago),i've been like seeing/dating/hooking up with a lot of random guys, many of which I don't even really like.I'm so freakin embarassed about it.It's SO not me.You see i have high standards.And it's definietly not about the attention...cause i get a lot of attention like all the time to the point where it gets annoying actually.
I don't know WHY i'm doing what i'm doing?but somehow i just can't stop,it's getting too addictive....i feel like there is a hole ,an emptiness that i wanna fell.
Anyway,it got worse when i broke up with my boyfriend.It's like i don't care anymore...or maybe by creating non-relationships is just a way of saying i'm not ready for a serious relationship and commitment that it comes with it...i dunno!!I'm SO confused!
The thing is those random guys could NEVER hurt me...casue i don't give a fuck about them.i'm just in it for fun whereas with the one i really like he would have that kind of power over me.and i really like the fact that i control things like i can end any of those random "relationships"" anytime i want and i wouldn't even feel sorry or bad about it.
Whatever the reason is...this thing is getting out of contol.It has to stop.It all started out as a "fun" thing but now it's actually a problem.I feel like a slut and i hate it.
i MUST have more self control, i must.
she walked out with empty arms machine gun in her hand she is good and she is bad no one understands! Turn back time : November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 .
7 Comments:
Hey take it easy girl !
its totally normal .. u feel lonely, hurt and sad..
but you are not slut coz' u already felt something iz wrong with it, so try to fill ur time wth activities and hang out with ur friends as much as u can ...
Take ur time and never ever lower ur standards... and soon Mr.right will appear... :D
(MFaHiaa)
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wastedchix, at 06 November, 2006
Ain't nothing wrong with guy hopping but if it makes you feel like a slut then stop.
We've all been through bad relationships, try to learn from what happened wrong in your previous relationships and don't let it happen again. Upgrade yourself so your weakness becomes your strength.
Love the new layout!!!
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Dotsson, at 07 November, 2006
i agree with mfahyaa and dotsson ..
u just going thru this phase after a break up ..it's ok alot of people go thru it!!
keep ur self busy with less guyz and more friends for now ...
it'll be ok ..do NOT feel bad ..nothing happened ..u'r ok :")
ThunderCAT
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wastedchix, at 07 November, 2006
omg, do not stress at all. I went through EXACTLY the same thing like a year ago and trust me its a phase and it will pass. And, i second or third everyone else who said that you shouldn't feel bad.
You put your finger right on it. These guys cant hurt you because they mean nothing. You may need time to grieve your relationship with your ex, if you haven't allowed yourself to do so. That always helps :*
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cixousianpanic, at 10 November, 2006
Mfahiaa
yeah i'm tryin my best...but damn mr.rite is takin too long!!:P
dotty
merci ;)
ThunderCAT
"less guyz and more friends "
Amen to that!you're the best love u girl!
cixousianpanic
yeah i know it's just a phase but it's takin too long...or at least longer than what i expected!
i'm gonna be fine...thanx girl :*
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SugarComa, at 13 November, 2006
I don't really know about this kind of stuff bs I just wanted to say.. "GoodLuck with everything"
& Inshalla everything will be okay at some point..
Take care =)
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FiFi, at 16 November, 2006
What's life without a bit of drama? :P :P
To hell with standards. It takes an awfully long time sometimes to sift through all the waste and stumble upon something worthy. So all these meaningless relationships serve their purpose. How in the world are you supposed to find the right guy if you don't check guys out? And how can you check them out without any interaction whatsoever? Right on, you can't. And they serve their purpose by filling your time and space that needs filling, for now. When you will find what you truly need, all the substitutes will dissolve and disappear.
So enjoy being free and having a choice. This doesn't make you a slut. This makes you a clear-headed, strong and demanding woman who knows what she wants. And when was that a bad thing?
:-*
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Qatar Cat, at 21 November, 2006
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