What to say....what to say...
Been working my ass off for the past 2 weeks or so....It's insane! I feel like i don't have the time to do anything...simple things even,like meeting with my friends,shopping..fuck i don't even have the freakin time to talk on the freakin phone...what's up with that?I feel too stressed out...and to make things worse, my dad is sick and i'm so worried about him...AAHHH!!!I feel like EVERYTHING is just too much for me to handle...i need a fuckin break.....from LIFE!
Anyways,there're a lot of things that i wanna say but i can't right now.I'll writet more later when my brain is functioning correctly...Now to take my mind off things i decided to do this silly thingy... what would you be?
If I were a month, I would be: October
If I were a time, of day I would be: 03:15 A.M
If I were a sin, I would be: Lust
If I were a tree, I would be: Hibiscus
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: Stormy
If I were an animal, I would be: a cute chiwawa
If I were a color, I would be: Hot pink
If I were an element, I would be: Water
If I were a song, I would be: love song-The Cure
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: John Waters or Tarantino (sorry can't choose)
If I were a book, I would be written by: Poppy Z. Brite
If I were a taste, I would be: Chocolate
If I were a scent, I would be: lavender maybe
If I were a word, I would be: FUCK *it's my favorite word...EVER*
If I were an object, I would be:a laptop?*hey,i like sitting on ppl's laps esp if they were HOT* ;)
If I were a facial expression I would be: Pouty
If I were a shape I would be: Round!
...and STUPID!!
apparently I'm a master in this art category.
This friend of mine broke up with her fiance yesterday...So she called me late at night to vent ,and being the NICE friend that i am,i listened and listened for like 2 hours...while she was bitching and moaning..and crying occasionally.But i had work to go to the next day and it was getting really late...3:00 am LATE!!So i was like "sweetie,i gotta go to bed now...so how about we meet for a coffee tomorrow or something and we can talk all about it"...she was like "Oh really? That's an awesome idea, I'm lucky that I have you".
I got off work early to meet up with her as planned ,but she didn't show up so i called her but there was no answer then i txted her STILL no answer i got pretty worried ,so I bought her the best coffee mix and cinnamon rolls that she loves so much, as in "Don't come to the coffee, the coffee comes to you".And I tried to call her again on my way to her house ....She finally picked it up.
The Conversation went something like this :
Me: "hey you, is everything ok?"
Her:"yeah,i'm fine"
Me:"Well, actually I was a bit worried about you since you-know-what happened..."
Her:"yeah, i heard the fone ringin but i was too lazy to pick it up"
Me"Oookay!!! I was waiting for you at the coffee shop...i thought you wanted to talk"
Her"yeah,sorry i didn't feel like it"....Bitch,if you "didn't feel like it" call or at least txt me to cancel...i LEFT my fuckin work JUST to see you!!
Me:"Oh!!...anyways, I have something to give you, can I come?"
Her:"Well, I have to go shopping with my sister in an hour."
Me:"Ok, I'll just stay by your door and give you the stuff then go."
Her:"Ok"
Then I went to her flat and gave her this little surprise and she said in a very "COLD" voice: "You know, you don't have to worry about me". I replied: "For sure I won't". Then I left without a word.
Is that the "thank you" i get?!!Damn!...The thing that I find hard to swallow is that she makes me feel like I'm almost overreacting. Lately though,she has been nothing but a moody cunt to me and i talked to her about it so many times...but all the "talking" did nothing...'cause she's STILL a selfish ungreatful fuckin bitch.I've given her so many chances and she shat on me.i'm SO done with her.I've known her for a year only. I find this friendship to be a little bit too new to make the other feel like shit without a reason.
I'm fucking pissed off...i'm definitely gonna cut her out of my life...i don't need this shit.I feel indifferent towards her anyways, but now I am very angry. I don't know if it's more about her of myself though. Probably myself.
she walked out with empty arms machine gun in her hand she is good and she is bad no one understands! Turn back time : November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 .
