Things I have don't last for long
Boys have come, and boys have gone
I've grown accustomed
I never really cared too much
Don't get attached
Because I know them
And what they're after
I let them in we make some noise
They let themselves out
That's their choice
Boys will be boys
The phone won't ring and I become
some anecdote
And though I've had my fun
It gets lonely
Then came your kiss
and all I was missing
Was there in your eyes
Your lonely brown eyes
Please say You'll stay
Say you'll never go away
My discarded heart has finally found a home
I know it's love
You touched my soul
When I see you I catch my breath
Forget my sorrow
And I miss you before you've left
You are tomorrow
Here in your hands I find a chance
to make it through
To be somebody
Stay with me
I need your kiss
Cause all I was missing
Was there in your eyes
Your lonely brown eyes
So please take my hand
Let me help you understand
Two searching hearts can rest and be made whole
I know it's love
Please let me touch your soul
it only hurts me to continue on like this. i keep hoping for a magic word that will make you snap out of it and do what you and I both know you should do. i just want to protect myself from hurting like this anymore and I'm out of ideas. so i'm attempting to build a wall against you.it's why i dont really wanna talk to you about much asside from plans being made. i dont want to open up to you anymore. i want to fall out of love with you. i want to be indifferent. i cried the whole way home.I CRY ALL THE FUCKIN TIME.i'm sick of it. there's just no fucking point anymore....i want to turn it all off
"your dick in a box"
step 1 - you cut a hole in the box
step 2 - you put your junk in the box
step 3 - have her open the box
OR the sugarcoma way
step1-hack the dick off
step2-throw it in the box whilst its still warm and twitching
step3-wash the blood and flesh from your dentures
LMFAO i hope thats what santa brings me...i've been a good GOOD girl.
Indifferent!
Emotionless!
Cold hearted!
However you want to say it, it's growing on me more and more each day. It's easier to just not care rather than to feel.Tick tock, time goes by, faster than we realize. So fast, yet sometimes so slowly.Think back a month ago. A month is so long, but in the big picture a month is nothing. Why then, do things seem so different than they were merely a month ago?No major change..little things have more impact. Someday you'll see what I mean.Someday!I hate you so much.Or at least I want to, and try to convince myself that I do. So raw, so real. You just don't get it.I'm mad at myself, but I always find a justifiable reason.Smooth talker. Impossible to figure out. Excuses, excuses, excuses.You're quite good at those. Just remember actions speak louder than words!
I love this quote about time from Grey's Anatomy:
"For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.""
"Time heals all pain, but for some it may take a little longer."
"Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting."
"Time heals all wounds, unless you pick at them."
This entry is basically all about HIM.And it says fuck a lot too.Oh well, what can you do.:/
-i cant carry on like this anymore but i dont know how not to!
-yes,it's true! even brilliant people are full of shit, i didn't realise that until i met you!
-I really, REALLY like *you*. I'm so smitten and it borders on pathetic. Being with you is really amazing, and I can't wait to be in the same room with you again. When you talk, it's like the narrative out of my favorite movie.
-You fuckin stupid whore!I hope you're gang-raped by 30 greasy homeless guys who break every bone in your fuckin face after they're done.
-still.obsessed.with.you. we've known eachother for like a year!but it's over now!WTF is wrong with me? GOD...I'm so lame.
-please, love me. just love me. or want me. or act as though you want me or need me. please, just want me.
-to a stupid cunt: why do you go OUT OF YOUR WAY to think up vulgar things to say that are aimed at me. I refuse to aknowledge what you said, but damn! I've never crossed you other to have a different opinion than you (okay and maybe NOW cuz of this "fight" with your friend). I hope I don't have to run into you anywhere, cuz it'll get ugly and it's likely I'm the one to look stupid. You rarely know what the fuck you're talking about, but you're so cool arent you? So hard. So punk. Fuck you, you ignorant cunt.
-oh god i cant wait to see you, this weekend is going to be fun. i dont care what happens between us.
-You are such a fucking child sometimes.
-I miss you so much. I was doing completely fine until that fucking dream I had. It was like a trip back in time.... it was so painful to wake up and know that things are different. Is there even a chance that we could start over fresh?
Phew..it feels so good to let it all out!
Isn't amazing that just when you're givin up or lost something unexpected can change everything!
*dances around*
Happy,happy ...joy,joy!
I heart my friends
i heart my family
i heart my sister
i heart the boys in my life
i heart music
i heart dancing semi naked in my beedroom
i heart hash
i heart my new laptop
i heart HIM
i'm just finally happy. I havent been in a whille. Its really great.
Kinda overwhelming at times...it scares the shit outta me sometimes.Even tho things are kinda hard and soon to be harder. I'm still happy!
I hope this feeling never goes away!
I feel SO good!
Plz let it stay for longer than a week!
ok so ever since i broke up with my x( like 9 months ago),i've been like seeing/dating/hooking up with a lot of random guys, many of which I don't even really like.I'm so freakin embarassed about it.It's SO not me.You see i have high standards.And it's definietly not about the attention...cause i get a lot of attention like all the time to the point where it gets annoying actually.
I don't know WHY i'm doing what i'm doing?but somehow i just can't stop,it's getting too addictive....i feel like there is a hole ,an emptiness that i wanna fell.
Anyway,it got worse when i broke up with my boyfriend.It's like i don't care anymore...or maybe by creating non-relationships is just a way of saying i'm not ready for a serious relationship and commitment that it comes with it...i dunno!!I'm SO confused!
The thing is those random guys could NEVER hurt me...casue i don't give a fuck about them.i'm just in it for fun whereas with the one i really like he would have that kind of power over me.and i really like the fact that i control things like i can end any of those random "relationships"" anytime i want and i wouldn't even feel sorry or bad about it.
Whatever the reason is...this thing is getting out of contol.It has to stop.It all started out as a "fun" thing but now it's actually a problem.I feel like a slut and i hate it.
i MUST have more self control, i must.
she walked out with empty arms machine gun in her hand she is good and she is bad no one understands! Turn back time : November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 .
